Monday, June 8, 2020

Part 3. - Experience

It took me five days to discover what I was supposed to be observed within myself, to do as advised and know myself. I had no idea what was supposed to be watching what, or even how.

As far as I could tell, my awareness was pointed squarely at my senses and that was all there was to it. Oh and an inner eye, ear &c.

But when you use anything, you don't think to yourself "I'll just twist it a bit this way and lift it" to pick it up. It just happens in the moment, and although your mind is fully in the moment, it takes no thought to make these actions.

That is the intrinsic nature of your mind. Once you get over the confusion of youth, your mind is unlocked. But by that time, education and the association with a large group of like-minded newbies to the psychological world are almost entirely brain-washed by each other's mind-savageness.

You keep infecting each-other with the savageness of previous generations, and if this savageness begins to fail in society, they bring it back to maintain your intrinsic survival state of mind, which relies on this savageness but is also the result of it.

Celebrities and news media are complicit in this conspiracy, without knowing they themselves are a part of the infected. Actually, you can't be a celebrity without knowing everyone else is also a fake.

Celebrity is the maintenance of an illusory or restricted self/public-image.

Experience is made of yourself. Observe your own thoughts as though external to yourself. That is the source of your internal world and defines almost all of your character. The real you is lost.