Conceptual Self - The Illusion of Free Will

There is no such thing as free will in this current illusion of 'becoming'. Becoming is the state of mind we are conditioned with at school. It is a trained compulsion to succeed, achieve, win, have a foot in front and benefit where others don't.

This causes the awareness to constantly switch between past memories and future events. As a result, your mind is always "elsewhere" to seek that "foot in front", and has been in those places(times) for some time. With any luck, you don't force-feed yourself with the given methods of distraction, and every now and then you find some peace. But even that pause merely awakens your interest in some sort of self-improvement way. As soon as you assign that concept, you automatically assign the succeed/fail paradigm. Duality.

Currently, this idea of "self" springs from the expectation of what the group wants of you, what your parents want of you and what your conditioners/educators/rulers want of you. Within this mould they all provide for us from birth, you form a character.

That character has a standardised set of reactions, desires, frame-work for life and so on. It also has a standard method for deciding if the information is valid and can be allowed into the brain to find acceptance or be rejected.

This feature has a maximum working speed, a maximum number of processes at any one time and a sort of "impossible!" switch. 

This feature can be tricked. It can be tricked slowly with media, news, entertainment and education. Or quickly with hypnosis or an overflow or complicated mesh of input at any one time. The critical faculty gives up to the information. It becomes idle when constantly used for mundane tasks and idle matters like entertainment. It becomes more accepting of the shock-level of 'events' and no longer forms a barrier to rotten information and agendas.

The short of it is, that if my will to do specific things comes from the fact I'm just copying other people, then there is no free will at all. We just do what we're supposed to be doing.